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You either believe in A or B.  Simple as that.

The “I don’t want trouble” attitude doesn’t fly in hardcore.  So make a fucking decision or fuck off - you don’t belong here.  Sorry to break it to you but hardcore kids are very opinionated and judgmental.

WAHHH!  My friends don’t like me because I can’t pick them over a kid who cuts his wrists and fucks all my ex’s as soon as I break up with them over kids who care about me.  My life is so hard because my parents drink.  Guess what my parents always drink, they always hated each other, they always fought in front of me, and they always hated me / blamed me for their problems.  Not to mention gave everything to anyone over me.  Thats life pussy.

You think life is SO fucking hard because you don’t get the allowance you always wanted?  hahaha.  I ALWAYS had a shitty one and had to start buying my own EVERYTHING starting when I was 13.  That means food, clothes, etc.  Why?  Because I am a fucking man and got jobs even before it was legal.  Suck a dudes dick.

Father to son,
Congratulations I am so proud,
You’ve taken the  world like a man,
You gave it everything you can,
You made it from nothing,
Now look where you are,
I’m so proud.

Father to son,
Silence,
You’re a horrible excuse of a man,
Silence,
Year pass - prejudice is passed,
Silence,
Father to son,
The end of the man, the father, the son,
No more.

I feel like my room is a reflection of my current state.  Although rare, when my room is clean and organized I am feeling good and on top of the world.  I have my shit together literally and figuratively.  Most of the time it’s not in too bad of shape but times like now it’s a disaster.

Trash.  Beer.  Who knows.

I was doing good, really good.  I was losing weight because I cared.  I was running and eating good and as always something shot me down and it all got taken away.  I lost two of my best friends.  I have an easier time not talking to my mother then them.

I generally don’t care about cutting some one out of my life but times have been tough.  I made a lot of cuts, A LOT these past 6 months.  Some people I could care less about others I do more and I think it’s why I have a hard time sleeping.   So I try to fill my life with other crap.  Stuffing my face and spending 95% of my day in my room alone.  I have no will or want to see anyone, I feel betrayed.  Betrayed by people I gave my life to.

Maybe that’s why I have a hard time letting people in.  I am not like I used to be years ago, I could be friends with anyone back then.  Now I’m still a great guy if not beyond so to my friends, now I just shut everyone down.  I cut their throats before they have a chance to talk.  Maybe it’s time for me to move.  I have to soonish anyways.

Everyone is fucked up but not like me.  I hardly ever have ups.  I usually float some where below the middle.  Instead of being able to breathe most of the time, most of the time I can’t.  It’s hard to stay up when there is always conflict in the lives of the people I care most about.  That’s probably why I try to stay calm.  Even people at work notice this.  I rarely get excited about anything and I think it’s because I have trained myself to be like this.  Not really on purpose, but I recognize it and don’t necessarily encourage it - I just don’t discourage it.  I guess what I am saying is I am an enabler to my own bad habits.  So like always I just ignore everything the best I can and try to keep my head above the water - taking breaths while I can, but not yelling for help.  I would never yell.

I guess I try to fill my life with material possessions to try and fill some void.  It’s the worst habit I have; Even worse then smoking.  I was never given anything as a child.  I had jobs before it was legal to and haven’t stopped working since.  I was forced to buy my own clothes and food even after my family started making more money.  I guess knowing what they had and didn’t give me filled me with jealousy.  So I climbed.  From paper boy, to bus boy, to computer tech, to programmer.  And I did it all without school.  Fuck that noise.  I bought and I buy and I give and I give.  My credit card bill each month is more then most people make in 3.  Yeah I pay it off, but it fucks up my savings, needless to say I don’t have much.

I think the need to have is gluttony to most people.  I am a consumerist whore.  I could even say it’s a sickness.  Losing friends to drugs, death, backstabbing never got me any where.  I know the only things that are semi-permanent are things I purchase.  So in times like these I fill myself with those things, they won’t leave me unless I want them to.  I won’t have to sacrifice them because of how they behaved or lose them to heroin.  I guess I’m a lot more fucked up then I thought.

This is mostly about XiS, but here we go.

I had the perfect life, my parents were together, I had a great long term girlfriend, and I had XiS.  To this day I would die for members of XiS, they are my brothers.  We were all kids (9-16) and got bullied by old guys as in 30+.

At the time I was a smart kid, I was pretty good at keeping my cool and I was in with everyone in UT.  Clans that would ban my whole clan would still let me play.  Aww yeahhh.

Soul was my leader.  He was mysterious and wise as gay as that sounds, but it was true.  He was the creator of a game type called freestyle.  For years people tried to imitate the style but never came close.  Now EVERYONE steals MY rifle.. lol.  We got called cheaters, liars, hackers - you name it.  Soul was always strong enough to keep moving forward though - even when (before I was in) people in the clan got caught cheating (he obviously kicked them out).  He did a great job of keeping the image up.  Without a surviver like him, the clan wouldn’t have had lasted at  all.

Needless to say XiS was really around for about 3 years.  It was testing for everyone.  Clans HATED us for dominating camping and freestyle.  Like I said they tried everything in the book to try to make us cave and quit, retire, “admit we were cheating”, you name it.  I don’t even want to get into the stories, but 30+ year old men even threatened to break the legs of 15 year old kids.  Yeah seriously.  Cool dudes.

Anyways, life was perfect.  I was at an all time peak in my life and nothing could stop my life high.  Now shit sucks.  Yeah, back to XiS…  We never lost.  Not officially…  We got kicked out of tournaments, they would end them, anything - just to see us “not win” and it never worked.  With Soul as our leader we would not be fooled.  All of the best players left their clans to be in XIS (with very few exceptions).

I guess this was more of a rant then anything, but the morale is the XiS days were and always will be the best days of my life.  It was high drama but we were all on top of the world.  Like hardcore is to me now it was an outlet to our aggression and hate and we channeled it well, very well.  As [XiS]SoulRain always did and always will, he lead us to victory upon victory no matter what the situation.

I’m no pro at ASM or modifying it by far but I was playing around trying to see if my AirPcap Classic has the capabilities that a TX does.

Since I have no way to modify the firmware I found that my AirPcap’s PID is 0002.  I made an educated guess from the driver inf and tried fooling it into being a TX.  No go, the name changed on the driver but nothing else.

So I took a look at the AirPcapReplay program that came with it.  Changing the EAX register from copying from a register when getting a the dword value of “CACE0002″ to just giving it a value of “CACE0102″ worked!  By the way the original ASM was  MOV EAX,DWORD PTR SS:[ESP+14].  Well at least the program recognized it as a TX.

Next I looked at airpcap.dll to make other programs that use the dll (such as cain) in hope that it would work universally.  I patched the code in a switch from JE to JNE (74 0f to 75 0f), heh such a cheap way of doing it, but it worked.  I was lucky the first check is for N version because that uses a different driver,  then the first check in the switch is for the TX, so I didn’t have to do much there.

Well I tried it and it shows up in the AirPcapReplay program, but when I try to transmit packet’s it fails.  So patching the airpcapgetdevicecapabilities routine didn’t help so much.  Cain also didn’t see it as a tx.  Weird.

So my thoughts are the firmware blocks it or it really is different hardware.  I just remembered they provide the source for the .dll so that was definitely a waste of time.  Either way it was a pretty fun and rewarding project.